Thursday, February 03, 2005


disastrous xz
alrite, i juz reached home frm co and juz had dinner and bathed. and i am in a terribly terribly dazed mood rite now. i dunno y, muz b coz of xz. argh... k, so i shall vent all my thoughts out.

-ahem- ok, so xz wasn't tt bad, bt i cun help bt feel im being picked at (by hz tt is). dunno lah.. it's not the sitting infront part, haha.. dun laugh zm and jx, haha.. im like beginning to doubt myself. i think im beginning to deprove and deprove drastically. like, my standard starts to drop till like grade 1 liddat.. so i'm beginning to think i dun qualify for syf. (wad am i thinking?!) and it's nt juz wad hz sed lah, wgy also said b4 tt my looon wasnt as good as triyono last time (to think she onli learnt for like 1 yr?!) ahhh.. i am so in a dazed rite now. do people's standard juz dropped liddat?? i mean, maybe i shuld haf gone on for kaoji, and get a grade 6, so tt i haf the pressure to work me forward to improve or even juz maintain. i think i relli dropped lehh, and i dun seem to b able to improve liao. argh, wad am i toking? i dun even noe. [dazed] sighs. i think im catching the "playing-alone-fright" (as said by peiiz). cannot play alone lah.. nt tt i dun wanna play loud, i scared later the rusted strings will produce an awful sound when i hit it too hard. =x haha.. maybe i shall juz "bang" on the yq nx time (as zm says). oh well... wad a bunch of crap im writing.
nothing's right, im torn

k, so today went to 101 classroom. saw ms wong. saw my mortals. haha.. their class looks very cheerful. x)

hmmm.. tmr gt math quiz and ting1 xie3. bleh. dun wanna study!! lolx. i am so nt in the mood for studies. haha.. k k, shall nt bore anyone reading this.

TATA!

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